C

You live and you learn
but you learn as you live
be grateful what you have
and know what it is
that makes you tick
that makes you split
from undesired situation
undetected evasion

We're still out here having fun
living life
not on the run

Lets get those wheels turning
Nothing is as it seems
But it seems to me
The way it is,
Is unworthingly deemed

maybe you need to slow down
those gears grinded
screeching sound
the brain is binded

Perspectives change
recollections range
tell me what it is,
but you can only tell me what it isnt

Intimacy and misery

A man who forgets his past is doomed to relive it
Don't wanna make you afraid but i'm gonna remix it
Keep telling yourself that you're trying to fix it
As you sit there and wonder you begin your diminish

I cant stand this quickening - on going catastrophee
As Time speeds up-Its getting closer to the last of me
There is a frightening killer- in the midst of blaphomee
Without an "upper" hand,
It could only be the path for me

NOOOOOOOO

we resist who we have been
get lost in some ridiculous search within
I know that it's all pretend
but  lost with no direction
WILL WE LIVE AGAIN

catching on step by step
we forget the things we had in check
is it starting to feel like circles?
Is it starting to feel like circles

You want to change but you wont admit
 To the devastation, the calamity
what caused the lost hope in humanity
Call this unpredictable insanity
keep on questioning my questioning
, you can stick with your vanity

we resist who we have been
get lost in some ridiculous search within
I know that it's all pretend
but lost with no direction
 WILL WE LIVE AGAIN

Break the cycle
dont take my lead
break the cycle
dont take my lead
there is a difference between intimacy and misery        
you have tools for that ideal symmetry..

cross-cultural

Look at you
redefining your world
too make true
your expectation of the world

But at least you see life as beautiful
even if your way is twisted
you think it is all good
even if you missed it

keep hanging on to all these atrocities'
never know there's more to see
living in that box
you know what your dead to me

I can still say that I love you
but my oh my, I hate
That ill never be above you
I'm just there , in a state
of conscience collected due
in time for another fate
bound trip to the pew

shamelessly claiming
all these evils within
that you will always see
as the perfect clip-in
to WhoEver You Think You Are

How about you finish what you started

Here we are again
wrapped up in intentions
here we are again
playing with convictions

maybe one eye is too sensitive
Looking into the glass too deeply
maybe you have the right incentive
looking into the glass too deeply

Is it too much for one too handle
looking into the light of a broken candle
But not so quick to get stamped in
Please dry, my damp candle wic

Here we are again
wrapped up in intentions
here we are again
playing with convictions

shave my head, and maybe you'll listen
looking into the glass too deeply
put yourself and me behind, still
looking into the glass too deeply

My glass was smashed, But baby
I like to broken cracks
At least the sight not cashed
far from empty, i've been back

but you're still looking into the glass
searching for what you want to see
Baby you've lost your class
I'm being me, instead of what you want to see

here we are again
I refuse to start over again
here we are again
I will never start over  again

Everything I need is under my pillow
Why do you want me to get into yours
I already have my fully loaded start
I'm working for what the end has in store

On guard pt 1

Be careful little eyes what you see

That little rhyme, always comes back to me

It's important to stay on guard

Worldy aspirations tend to bombard

Sure, in your mind you want to good

 But your self-conscience mind

Keeps you from being all you could

Pray to The Lord for the cleansing

That your spirit truly needs 

His will is now commencing

tossing away the worldly seeds

 

TBC & TBE

P4VK R4YF

Respect

There are some qualities 

That are not learned in a book

They are learned in action 

That are worth a second look 

One step at a time 

Once we make a decision 

That we can better 

That we will live with precision 

Respect-

it's the first step 

To really growing up 

Fixing that feeling in the throat

It feels somewhat like strep 

The truth has been in your mind 

Only voicing it slowing

It Seems like the past

Had us in bondage 

But finally proper growing 

To the woman working 

All day and all night 

I bet it probably feels like eternity

But Momma it's gonna be alright 

To all the Male role models 

To me your actions were not unnoticed

The work ethic I have seen 

Reassured me,I was below this

I've realized-

 to you guys- I am nothing, 

I was lazy at first 

Please know this is coming from the heart

I'm doing my best and I'm not bluffing

In righteousness, will I be apart

Never feeling like I was good enough

At being a man 

I did my own thing 

The man upstairs changed the plan 

Tho I Know I seems like this kid never caught on 

But I promise what you instilled in me

Is what I was built upon 

I just never took action, fearing what you thought 

But understand,that I've put myself aside

You did a good job, and I was well tought 

It's been five months

Since I've been pickin up the pieces 

I am ready Man up for real 

This attitude finally ceases

I have learned and learned

The words and action of good value

But as long as I'm hangin on to the past

Oh God, 

Nothing-

 is worthwhile without you

It's been important to be natural and free 

So no matter what I know it's me 

Strive to takeaway something 

From what ever life can bring 

Maybe one day I'll be 

as half as good 

As the elders that raised me 

I wish they knew how grateful I was 

If only I could rip,

My heart out for them to see 

In my writing there's no redemption 

For any of my selfish deeds 

But a chance to grow and be honest

And develop what they watered ,

The God-given, self-neglected seed

There's hope for us all 

Who have fallen carelessly 

The fear in The Lord

Can be glue to the seat ,endlessly 

I may seem a little down 

But honestly I am rejoicing 

Because I'm not blind to what I've done 

So I can wisen up my choicing 

I have worked hard for this though 

Everything else just was neglected 

But with aspects in check 

A different Attitude with be inspected 

This post is dedicated to you guys

But this page for your approval not

Me and all these young men women 

Will better our trueselfs

And our growing society will not rot

Stand up, you're playing in your fertilizer

It's easy to become bitter But stay joyful in the truth Fight for what is right Before you lose a tooth I'm turning my hat backwards More focused than I've ever been There are no words that can stop me from writing rights known within But here is what I know Confidence cant be in myself Only in what God had told us If he were santa, We should strive to be his elf I have no need for gifts I just want want I deserve but even if my spirit lifts I'm not above the fkn curve When I try to do it my way gravity pulls me down The word of God is in me And exposes the rest as a clown It's easy to be cynical afraid to take a stand we've all fallen short of judement But for better we demand Instead of cowering in the past we are free for reprimand -Panic4VanityKills-Rejoice4WeAreFree-


 Free,
well if I even want to be
not to put in context the county or economy
but I keep choosing not to choose
with everything to lose
You'd think id find the will
to stand my ground
and put aside my blues
 how fly
she said" I'm kite flying",

because i'm a flying kite
The wind is currently dying
   see I wasn't satisfied
with the air and stability
I longed to ride with the wind
I traded ethos and credibility
Now I only have [   ]

The digital nightmare PT1

Please don't be offended
by what I'm about to say
nothing bad is intended
Just a change in today
Have you ever wanted to connect?
but people can't look you in the eyes
They are too busy up holding
Their predetermined social disguise
Uneasy when questions are asked
Its like they forgot how to answer
Unless speaking from the phone
This is--the new cancer
Thumbs moving wild,
chatting with many a friend
They put the social scene together
That they will defend
Put down that phone,
and for once try to listen
None of this will bring happiness
and hedonism im still dissin
The money cant bring it either
Because there is no relationship
too Prosper as you grow
A nation with no real kindness equipped
There are Still many good hearts
across our land today
But for many it is an act
to uphold what they convey
I was never one
to be living in the screen
But like many I was sleeping
Like an unwatered lima bean
Instead of making any real connection
They try to take away
something for a greater inspection
from what these characters may say
These are people! These are spirits!
Call me crazy if you please
But we are more than just A profile
Stop looking for deficiency
You only listen to reply
Or to build a new profile
The soul searchs for help
In this society mobile but immobile
TBC TBE

This one is for me

This page is not about me
But I have to clear the air
about somewhat that has been said
part of it is my fault,
my input it has been rare

First off, your opinion was made in secret
together making a concoction
Trying to figure me out
passing it on for an adoption

I'm not wasting away in depression
for the most part I'm happy as can be
I'm never worried about inspection
for real?
who's the one uneasy when your around me

Don't get me wrong,
 I've had some downer days
But sometimes it is well needed
to see clearly with no haze

I'm more confident than ever
But pride has passed away
I know myself so well
and sorry, I'm here to stay

If I talked, would you listen?
or take away what you want to hear
My gosh, your superficial
your words I do not fear
I'm just being me
I hate to crush you dear

I can already tell you're getting offended
probably because I'm right
but that's not what's intended
ask me a question I won't bite

There is more than your perspective
some will never see
You're a terrible detective
from the truth you'll always flee
too caught up your thinking
of what you want me to be

You have to try to grow
That's what ive entertained
but i'm not putting on a show
while you try to sustain

Of course I want to prosper?
have money from a tree
But why would that be the focus?
If It would blind how I see

people have already been affected
by things that I have written
Encouraged by the words
but you have just been smitten
Keep calling it absurd

It was hard to come out
Be honest as I write
so if you want to pout
I guess it will be alright

I'm not writing for your approval
This stuff is what I love
If you have a problem your removal
will the product of.

In works there is NO redemption
That's why I have the father above?
I write for truth, and no suppression
I'm at peace just like a dove

You think I'm sensitive?
well I have a heart?
But truth will not hurt me?
nor will the crap that's in your cart.

writing is something that I love.
so go ahead and get offended
you'll only hurt yourself
but that's not what's intended.
so ill pull another one off the shelf

The only thing that makes me really tick
Is faking how you care
But out of it I get a kick
because it honestly isn't fair

If you have an apology ill take it
or at least just clear your chest
break down the walls that you have made
We must refresh.. for that is what is best

Of course, there's more too it but I will let my writing do the talking. Ill check back in again to cover some more area's that need to be discussed, but there is more important things that need attention.      I love you guys. Let's continue to grow.

Keep the emails coming in, I'll do my best not too take so long for now on, I wasn't expecting them.

Panic4VanityKills

Tick tick

Oh man oh man

I guess you know it all 

But here's the problem 

You missed the big picture

Your judgement is flawed 

Oh man, oh man 

Truth is stranger than fiction 

you are a stranger 

And you missed out on conviction 

Oh man, oh man 

I'm glad you guys are worried

If I were you I'd be too 

Because you wish to have burried

In my absence, beat me black and blue 

Oh man, oh man 

Don't you see don't you see 

You were wrong from the get go 

You may never be free

Man, my back is stronger than your knife 

You have no chance, if this is a fight 

You took my kindness as a weakness

May my words, keep you up at night 

Call me crazy , I call you lazy 

Keep shutting your eyes 

Your vision is hazy

You will never see past your

Group-gathered lies

Keep doing what you can 

To put your words in action

Don't be surprised 

If I jump ship on your faction

You misjudged my humility 

I never wanted to brag

I'm not so sensitively guilty

To your altered words

Sorry for the jet lag 

Are you with or against me ?

With my words you don't have to agree

Have faith in what I'm doing

Instead of pouring out jealousy  

Laughter is the best medicine.

This will be kept short and sweet
A secret remedy - it is unique
To help a lacking heart
and give balance to your feet

The storm- It seems to treacherous
But Joy returns to seat
once caught up on the past
But reproval now you greet

Just let out a laugh!-
fear seems so obsolete
Restoration comes
returning true strength -
reinforced concrete

Panic4VanityKills

What i lack in drawing skills...

                                                                TBC & TBE

                                                  To be continued & To be explained

                                                              Panic4VanityKills

Traffic

Switching sides of the road
Exciting maybe so
but im not frogger nor a toad
If so id soon be fed to the crow

As this traffic gets thicker and thicker
the only way across
is to be destroyed with a snicker
the devil comes quicker
so keeping myself in the word ,
I feel my blood getting thicker

Why did the chicken cross the road?
To get to the other side,
The eagle waits patiently
it wont be a bumpy ride

No more going back in forth
ILL be sure to get hit

(once a chicken, now an eagle)

I'm headed north
The straight line best fit.

TBC and TBE

Panic4VanityKills

I'm not the good guy, I'm that guy that admitted he was bad. Pt 1

What makes you special?

to talk down to us,

when you were the first

to get on the Yolo bus

I'm not saying I'm special

but somewhat thinking clearly

my thoughts have been celestial

So I give this to you dearly

I assure you it would be easy

To type up a big game

justify my sinful actions

And hide away all of the shame*

But ya-know what? screw that life

for a while I was unclear

But the sinning causes strife 

Im tired of living in fear

Every bit deserving of a knife..

So for once lend me your ear..

But wait, Imma let you know

that again I have found Joy

And fate, Is ready to go

 Joy

late but still bestow'd

Panic4VanityKills

We run, , we run...

We run, we run, we run..
Away from who we thought we were
We have to draw the line
We run,
We have to draw the line

Tripped up, lying in the dirt
We draw a line in the dirt
Between our feet
we draw the line
frantically, we cry for self preservation
But our selfs r on a path of devastation

we run, we run, we run
Away from who we thought we were
We have to draw the line
on our backs ,
We peddle in the air

Palsied knees , raised in the air
We draw the lines on ourselves
WE Run ,
from who we thought we were
But we wont kick the lines in the dirt
WE run, we cry, we lay in the dirt.

WE never even knew we stumbled
We cant run away
held back by our own hand
A friend erases the lines in the sand
We were never running
only cowering ,
we cried for self preservation
we will not accept indignation

no longer running, no longer running
we are weak,
But he is strong
so we are carried, carried, carried
carried away from devastation
saved from ourselves
My savior pours out his indignation
but for me there will be no devastation
Because I pleaded the fifth
selves aside, finally illumination

WE ran, We fell,
We ran, We fell,
Salvation saves us
from the man in the mirror
could it be any clearer
We are carried, carried
unpredictable, unmasked,
we are not anonymous
We are reborn,
SAVED
from
OURSELVES

-Dakota Workman